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Nurudeen Jah' Rakal ♥
No, it’s not that. It’s not what you’re thinking. I was serious when I said ‘all of it’. I can remember every moment we were together and in each of them there was something wonderful. I can’t really pick any one time that meant more than any other. The entire summer was perfect, the kind of summer everyone should have. How could I pick one moment over another? Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can’t control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That’s what it was like for me. I didn’t plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once, and that’s why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I’ll never forget a single moment of it. ♥ Happy 1monthsary Hubbykacak ! i love you . 240711 .
Happy Birthday Mummy . Tomorrow 24th , i love you mother <3
Nurudeen Jah' Rakal ♥
Dear you, I’m trying to be more positive.. I really want things to work. This is crazy. I have never felt like this with anyone before. I’m always afraid of getting hurt. I met you & I knew you were something different, I told myself that I wasn’t going to fall.. but I did. But I’m happy I did, look where we are now. Even though we're not like how we used to be , I feel complete. I still have hope. Even though late nights like these make me think about giving up, something tells me to keep going. I told you i'll be patience because I know how hard things are right now .I think its you probably the main reason. I promised you that things would get better & I know they are. I know it’s hard because we don’t go to the same schools. But what good would that do me? What if you don’t want to be like how we used to be then what we are right now then I’d just go to school & have to walk by you & just get broken every time I see your face.
Just let me prove you wrong & when I do what happens? Will that prove to you that it was meant to be? What’s going to make you say, “Be mine?” Will you ever say those words to me? Or am I just a ‘booty call’, am I just ‘the hook up’ for the summer. Please, don’t be that. I don’t know what I’d do. You don’t know what you’ve done to me already. If something happens where you don’t want there to be an ‘us’, I’ll be prepared because my life always seems to be full of disappointing things. I just hope you’re not one of them. There's nothing wrong in making mistakes .What's wrong is letting it STAY as a mistake WITHOUT the effort of MAKING IT RIGHT. I dont want to let go of guys which make the guy thinks that i love using guys . I want to prove that im much more better than them and prove that i'll be patience in everything . But wait ! I can easily lost hope in guys like real soon . So please , think about it Boy .
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 Things happened just a few seconds and minutes after breaking fast with girlfriend at Far East . What a hard day. I didn't expect things will get worse and cock up but i'm sorry. Things get even worse after that . Didn't spend that very moment with my girlfriend but getting hurt inside my very deep heart . Getting scoldings at geylang , pull , mad and so . I've always wondered what you did to me is the same as what you treat towards your ex girlfriends . You won't know the hurt feeling of a girl when they get those fights. Have you ever think i am your girlfriend ? I pretend to be okay but actually i'm not . Baby girl and girlfriend has been so caring towards me . They care and worried about me yesterday . Sorry to make those plans cock-up , sorry to make plans worse , sorry to make you two worried because of me. This time i promised it wont happened again. This time again i promised we wont meet anyone but to spend time together. Irahbaby , i know you were avoiding and mad at me yesterday . You don't have to hide all your feelings behind it. I have known you about , 2 years plus ? And i know you that well . You don't have to lie to me about you're sleepy in the train ? You were crying because of me . True tak ? Im sorry baby . I hope your very superlong msg will work for me. Once again , i am sorry irahbaby. Babygirl , im super sorry . You feel me today . Setaruk mataer kau yang ade tattoo tu pon , tak seteruk mataer aku. Please takecare of him and you know in the first place i told you , he is a very good guy indeed.
I’m done pretending I don’t care, I’m done acting like it doesn’t hurt me, I’m done. When you love someone, you don’t want to hurt them, even if they deserve to be hurt. When you love someone, you want to hurt them, even when they don’t deserve to be hurt. It takes time to heal...
Nurudeen Jah' Rakal ♥
Missed Never ignore a person who loves and cares for you, cause one day you may realize that you’ve lost the moon while counting the stars. Guys love to blame us when he thinks he's not in the wrong . They pushed blame on us for nothing and even scolded vulga towards us when they're not satisfied about it. That's what im facing right now. Boy , you did not have to teach me how not to lie and so . I know myself well okay . I told you i miss means i miss you there's not a need for you to be so sarcastic about i at home doing housework and didn't spend the time with you. You should know , i have to stay home and nobody is staying at home doing all the housework. It all depends on me , me , me . I have to go hospital and visit my father grandmother's and its like 3 days straight i've gone there eating hospital food. Please understand my situation. I told you , im only free on weekends not weekdays for this moment. I miss you Boy <3
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Happy 3monthsary Ex-Boyfriend . There's still a long long long way to gooooooooo . Move on is the best . A day to remember <3
Nurudeen Jah' Rakal ♥
 I wonder why , why ex do such thing to me which i think i really didn't do anything wrong. Flaws around about me to others , am i that really bad that you have to tell others about me till everyone looks down on me ? Everywhere i go now , everyone seems to know me. I wonder why . Sometimes flashing back to my past , looking into our photos , it hurts me a lot . The incident which reminds me on 9 August 2011 , it was bad . Wanted to spend my very good day on it but it turns upside down . I have to spend my time arguing and settling matters . If i looked you in the eye right now and i was forced to talk to you even though i am taken by someone else you know deep down inside , i probably say i love you . But now , no . I were to talk to you right in your eyes and settle those matters with you . I cant face you but i have to . Everyone is finding me because of this shits . Even , i get hurt on that very day on Singapore's Birthday . Hard slap infront of many people at Marina , was it worth ? Why didn't you think of beating me up infront of the others ? Mak aku tak perna sepak aku walaupun aku buat salah . Die tahu aku dah besar dan pandai jage diri but someone else slapped me . I feeeel hurt . Sanggup melihat aku begini ? Aku rase ex ex aku yang lain tak penah nak buat aku macam gini tapi dorang dapat rase . Even if i were to get back all those , i'll be waiting . Thanks Gegerl for being there for me . Youknow when i hugged you , everything in me suddenly starts to think and flashback to my old past relationships. I didn't know if ex ex kau yang lain penah kene macam gini . I hope i was the first one to get all these. People saw , people wanted to help but unsuccessful . Crying all night thinking , going to school thinking back . Cry cry cry because it hurts a lot to see me in this situation although i was already taken by someone else. I cry hard when i hug my friends because i really want to let go off those sad and hurt feelings . I really do </3 Kau tak pernah terpikir yang aku ni ex kau .
First hard slap , 9 August 2011 . Remember always <3
I hope you never look back and realize that I still love you with all that I am even though you've gone off and found some other girl to look at the way you used to look at me. Most importantly, I wish that you'll never see that I always loved you enough to let you go and be happy even if it means you can't be mine. Don't ever look back or you may just make me fall apart all over again. If you were to read this , Times passes ,things changed but memories will always stay where they are ,in the heart .
Nurudeen Jah' Rakal ♥
No matter how hard you try to plan your life, God has a special plan just for you. My Friday sucks alot . Someone ajak go Geylang but i dont want . Staying home like good girl does (:
Kau maintain . Kata kata mu hanya mimpi . Kau , simpan smue je dalam hati kau okay ? Sayang kau Hubby , kau maintain call call aku . Aku tak akan angkat . Kau dah sot dengan aku abeh ade hati nak call call .
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