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LYANNALEE
I’m really afraid to feel happy because people change , feelings change , feelings fade , and people get hurt .
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About Me 
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Nurudeen Jah' Rakal ♥  hug is what i need.. i just cant heLp it anymore but to cry aLoud infront of my friends. schooL was ooh-soo-ookeh. BasicaLLy i was feeLinq down and cLeepy because i was awake in the middLe of the midnight at thwee. Ferst lesson was mother tongue. My teacher was absent as he was nort feeLing weLL so cikgu yahidah take over him. We sat inside the cLassrooms quietLy whiLe the boys were making so much noises. Indeed i was shocked in e morning because of my menstruation. UsuaLLy i wiLL teLL friends about it so that they knows how am i gonna react when it came to this. SeLaLunyer mengamok adaLah pertama sekaLi aqu akan react ataopon depends on my mood. The noise in the cLass was getting louder and so i shouted. Everyone was starring at me. *roLLing eyes*After mother tongue lesson was maths. Half of the period i sLept tiLL Mr.Ho said this " ok class ,you can go for your next lesson!" Airin woke me up. I stood up straight,push in the chairs and gave the bLue book to Mr.Ho to have his signature on it. Mr.Ho : what happend to you?you look so cLeepy. Ermm ,nothingluhh.was just too tired uhh cher. Mr.Ho : too tired? What did you do last night? Watch tv ? Otp with boyfriend? Like heLLo no boyfriend pLease. I watched televisyen lastnight. *macam paham* Teros i waLked away and went for recess. Nazeera ask friends why i didnt taLk much today. Friends toLd her due to her menstruation & moodswing. I stood up and waLked away to put the pLates. Sesudah makan was my social studies lesson. I kept on lying down on the tabLe ,writting buLLshits about this girL. Bell rungs and went for EngLish . I toLd friends that i wanna go to the toiLet. Not to forget , i cried inside Social Studies lesson but friends didnt notice when i texting Bhabyice. Inside the toiLet , wash up and go for EngLish. Naseb kami semua baik sebab cikgu taq marah sebab masuq keLas lambat. I do some worksheets and trying to hoLd back my tears. Sampai cannot tahan reading Bhabyice msg's ,i ask cher whether i can go to the toiLet. I rushed and go to the toiLet to grab tissues. I sat aLong the ceiling and cried to myself. Sobbing , crying , wipping up my tears. Texted sabrina and said to her to bring my bag aLong when lessons finishes. Few minutes later , friends came to consoLe me. I was crying badLy and my faces were aLL red. I know iym gonna feLL sick soon. After that went for Science . Miss Kala : what happened to you today? Is there something wrong? *smile No.. nothing.. Miss Kala: you sure? you dont seems ok to me and i know u might keep something from me arent you?Come lets go out and taLk. I was like ohhh-mind-god siak. ape aqu nq cakap dengan dier. She asked me isiit because of boyfriends,friends or someone ? Then i toLd her its just that iym having menstruation today. Miss Kala said you sure ? Okey then. I went in and sit back. Next was PE , the boys were asking me ,why why why why i cried. Keypoooh lar korangs. After PE , followed Enor to Limbang to meet his boyfriend. Reached cck interchanged ,i saw Bhabyice but i ignored. Sabrina : ehh tu kwn kau oi. Buat bodoh luhh . *no mood* Then she sweeet at me. So i turned and she waLked sLowLy towards me and said Hi ,you okay? Trying to be strong enuf but never did i beLieved that when she hugs me i cried on her shouLders. Her friends were looking at me. I know i cried like aLot. I just cant forget him,friends. It wasnt easy for me to move on with my lyfe. I was wondering if he couLd come back to me on 14/2/11 . I know cry doesnt heLp it but can u aLL see how depress am i ? I hope it doesnt affects my studies. *tears roLL down* Thanks to peopLe who hugs me justnow. I appreciate it like aLot. |
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